last night i started a new creative journaling page.
a big one. i got out my big old sketchbook, i felt like i had a lot to explore and would need more space than the small journals i’ve been using lately.
here it is so far:
journal in progress
i really love the process of this one.
i started last night with a thick murky layer of white gesso mixed with black paint. i swirled it around on the page and really got into the murkiness of what i was feeling. the uncertainty and un-surity. i loved where the gesso and paint skipped over the paper and left bits of white, i loved how there was an unstructured border of white around some of the pages. and i left it to dry.
i had a somewhat uncomfortable dream which is not normal for me. i dreamed that my lovely tenants moved out unexpectedly. (i actually fell asleep thinking about how happy i am to have them, i really enjoy sharing the duplex with them) i woke up startled and disappointed and then remembered it was only a dream.
i sat down at my art table this morning and the dream came back to me only this time i understood the meaning.
so i picked up a grey oil pencil and started to write about how i was feeling. i opened up and intuition began to speak through my writing and there it was – clarity began to sprout through the murkiness.
i took out my paints and started layering and playing and allowing the feelings to move through. i only wanted to paint on the page on the right side though, the left side remained murky grey with my scribbled journaling on top.
and then clarity burst through.
i don’t want murky grey!
out came the hot pink.
out came a white oil pencil and swirls and movement.
out came a new perspective.
becoming.
i can focus on the murkiness or i can focus on what is becoming. as i painted “becoming” i felt what i am becoming as i move through the murkiness.
as i painted clear glitter paint over the black lettering i felt everything lighten up.
and now i’m going to let it sit and see where it goes next.
i love my journal.
andrea schroeder creates creativity workshops, downloadable creativity kits, art and guided meditations to support you in knowing and remembering that you are a creative being and you can create anything.
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This is insanely stunning. Oh, my goodness…you just lit a fire under my behind. Love this.
Thank you so much for sharing the process with us! It’s a beautiful page on its own, but knowing the story adds so much!
I love your journal page. Thanks for sharing the process.
The colours are great! and so is the word!
Wonderful becoming. Thanks Andrea for sharing this with us.
Great stuff, Andrea, I’m enjoying this process so much and learning a whole heap of new things along the way.
andrea, i love your journal too & i am grateful for how you beautify the world with your becoming. xo
that is really nice
“i can focus on the murkiness or i can focus on what is becoming. as i painted “becoming” i felt what i am becoming as i move through the murkiness.”
reading this woke me up. i have been in a bit of a murky fog lately too and i think i needed to read these words today.
oh, this made me smile! i love this focusing on becoming instead of the murkiness. lovely.
I love the beautiful wash of blue and texture and the word ‘becoming’ is sooo inviting. Thank you for sharing.
Hi, thanks for coming by to my site. I like this process that you are going thru – looks like a lot of fun!
That is stunning. I love the idea of creative journalling. Beautiful.
Love the journal page! Thanks for sharing your process