creative journaling in progress: becoming

by abccreativity on January 12, 2010

last night i started a new creative journaling page.

a big one.  i got out my big old sketchbook, i felt like i had a lot to explore and would need more space than the small journals i’ve been using lately.

here it is so far:

journal in progress

i really love the process of this one.

i started last night with a thick murky layer of white gesso mixed with black paint.  i swirled it around on the page and really got into the murkiness of what i was feeling.  the uncertainty and un-surity.  i loved where the gesso and paint skipped over the paper and left bits of white, i loved how there was an unstructured border of white around some of the pages.  and i left it to dry.

i had a somewhat uncomfortable dream which is not normal for me.  i dreamed that my lovely tenants moved out unexpectedly.  (i actually fell asleep thinking about how happy i am to have them, i really enjoy sharing the duplex with them)  i woke up startled and disappointed and then remembered it was only a dream.

i sat down at my art table this morning and the dream came back to me only this time i understood the meaning.

so i picked up a grey oil pencil and started to write about how i was feeling.  i opened up and intuition began to speak through my writing and there it was – clarity began to sprout through the murkiness.

i took out my paints and started layering and playing and allowing the feelings to move through.  i only wanted to paint on the page on the right side though, the left side remained murky grey with my scribbled journaling on top.

and then clarity burst through.

i don’t want murky grey!

out came the hot pink.

out came a white oil pencil and swirls and movement.

out came a new perspective.

becoming.

i can focus on the murkiness or i can focus on what is becoming.  as i painted “becoming” i felt what i am becoming as i move through the murkiness.

as i painted clear glitter paint over the black lettering i felt everything lighten up.

and now i’m going to let it sit and see where it goes next.

i love my journal.
andrea

andrea schroeder creates creativity workshops, downloadable creativity kits, art and guided meditations to support you in knowing and remembering that you are a creative being and you can create anything.

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creative journaling: becoming who i am
January 20, 2010 at 11:12 am

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Lu January 12, 2010 at 12:40 pm

This is insanely stunning. Oh, my goodness…you just lit a fire under my behind. Love this.

Meg G January 12, 2010 at 2:11 pm

Thank you so much for sharing the process with us! It’s a beautiful page on its own, but knowing the story adds so much!

Bev Baird January 12, 2010 at 3:49 pm

I love your journal page. Thanks for sharing the process.
The colours are great! and so is the word!

Wendy Burton January 12, 2010 at 7:51 pm

Wonderful becoming. Thanks Andrea for sharing this with us.

Mo Davies January 12, 2010 at 10:43 pm

Great stuff, Andrea, I’m enjoying this process so much and learning a whole heap of new things along the way.

rachel awes January 13, 2010 at 6:25 am

andrea, i love your journal too & i am grateful for how you beautify the world with your becoming. xo

Scott January 13, 2010 at 7:50 am

that is really nice

melissa January 15, 2010 at 8:17 am

“i can focus on the murkiness or i can focus on what is becoming. as i painted “becoming” i felt what i am becoming as i move through the murkiness.”

reading this woke me up. i have been in a bit of a murky fog lately too and i think i needed to read these words today.

leah January 16, 2010 at 8:41 pm

oh, this made me smile! i love this focusing on becoming instead of the murkiness. lovely.

Lisa January 19, 2010 at 11:45 am

I love the beautiful wash of blue and texture and the word ‘becoming’ is sooo inviting. Thank you for sharing.

Evelyn January 19, 2010 at 1:21 pm

Hi, thanks for coming by to my site. I like this process that you are going thru – looks like a lot of fun!

Angie January 20, 2010 at 7:25 am

That is stunning. I love the idea of creative journalling. Beautiful.

Ruthie January 20, 2010 at 8:56 am

Love the journal page! Thanks for sharing your process :D

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